Chapter 35

Jen was sitting quietly in the front of the bus. She was attempting to read through the newest book she had picked up at the bookstore. She was trying to stay quiet.
Christy had already heard about Jen’s concert outing with Taylor and informed Becky. Together they sent a barrage of questions her way. Jen fielded them, revealing as little as possible. She wasn’t yet sure if she would tell them about the kiss between her and Taylor. She wasn’t even sure what was going on between her and Luke yet. She had barely spoken to him in over a month.

She loved Luke, but at the same time, the kiss between her and Taylor felt different. And at the time it felt right.

She sighed in frustration and dropped her head into her hand. She had re-read the same sentence over about five or six times. She put the book down in her lap. She wasn’t very far in her book.

Becky came through the curtains between the bunk and the main lounge and walked over to the fridge. She removed a bottle of ice-tea and spotted Jen on the sofa.
“Hey, we’re all watching movies back there, why don’t you-“
“That’s alright. I’ve got a headache.” Jen replied. “I think I’ll just sit out here in the quiet.”

“Alright. Want anything?” She offered re-opening the fridge. “Ice tea? Red bull?”

“No thanks.” Jenna re-opened her book.

Becky sighed heavily and walked into the front lounge, dropping into the sofa opposite the one Jen was on.

“Alright, fine. Tell me what happened with Taylor last night.”

“Nothing!” Jen replied, a little too defensively.

Becky raised her eyebrows. “Now I know something happened. You can tell me. I swear I won’t say anything.”

Jenna swallowed hard. She put her book aside and leaned forward, lowering her voice significantly.

“He kissed me.”

Becky nearly choked on her ice tea. “You’re kidding me. But he knows things are still complicated with Luke? Did you stop him?”

Jen paused. “No…”

“So you kissed back?”

Jen fell back against the sofa. “Look, it was just a kiss… it doesn’t necessarily have to mean something, right? It could have just been an innocent little kiss.”

“It can’t be just an innocent kiss! You know he likes you, do you like him?”

“I… I don’t know.”

“And that doesn’t bother you?”

“Look, I don’t know what to do, okay? I just need some time to think, alright?”

“Okay.” Becky paused. “Do you want me to talk to Zac?”
”No!” Jenna jumped in.

“I mean and see if you and I can bunk together, and that way you can have a night or so to think about it?”

“Won’t he get suspicious then and know something is different if we suddenly change the rooming arrangement?”

Becky paused for a moment. “Jeeze, this is complicated.”

“No kidding” Jenna sighed.

Christy curled up closer to Isaac on the u-shaped sofa in the back lounge.
After everyone else had gone to bed, they sat up watching the latest video he had purchased.
She pulled the blanket she had taken from one of the spare bunks up around her shoulders more and rested her head on his shoulder.

“You okay, honey?” He asked tightening his arm around her body.
”Yeah. I’m just a little tired.”

“You can go to bed if you want.” He urged. “I’d like to see the end of this though…”

She smiled. “That’s okay. I’d prefer to spend as little time in that stupid little bunk as possible.”

He chuckled. “I know. I guess we could probably sleep out here if we want.”
“That’s okay. I’ll wait until you’re done your movie, and we’ll go to bed at the same time.”

“Alright. Think we can both fit in the same bunk?” He chuckled, kissing her forehead.

“Are you kidding? Those stupid bunks are worse than caskets. Honestly.” She sighed. “I never get any sleep in those things.”

“Really? I never seem to have any problems getting to sleep on the bus.”

“Yeah, but you sleep like a bear in hibernation.”

“Believe it or not, I’ve actually heard that before.” He laughed.

“I believe it.” She teased, gently prodding him in the side with her index finger.

“Hey, it could be worse. At least I don’t snore. Zac has that pretty much covered.”

“No kidding.” Christy laughed. “And you do snore sometimes, baby, when you’re really tired.”
“Sorry. I don’t do it intentionally.”

“I know. It doesn’t bother me. I’m used to it now.”

“But you’re such a light sleeper. You hear everything.”

“Yeah, but now I can’t seem to sleep without you.”

“I can’t sleep without you either.” He grinned and kissed the top of her hair. “But tomorrow night we’ll be back in a hotel, and we’ll both get a good night’s sleep.”

Christy laughed. “Who knows maybe neither of us will be doing any sleeping.”


Becky pushed her sunglasses up on her nose as she stepped off the bus in the parking lot of the club. The boys had long since gone into the venue in order to warm up and do a sound check.

“Jesus, can it get any hotter out here?” Christy asked, following Becky from the bus.

“Can you bitch about the heat anymore?” Becky replied.

Christy laughed. “Wow, someone has been on the bus a bit too long.”

“I don’t know, maybe it’s the heat.” Becky sighed, locking the bus door behind them.

“Alright, I’ll buy that.” Christy caught up to Becky’s stride. “So tell me, with this new rooming arrangement, have you and Zac been going at it like bunnies or what?”

“Not exactly.” Becky replied somewhat glumly.

“What does that mean?” Christy replied “Are you holding out on him or is he holding out on you?”

“It’s not that.” Becky replied, glancing around to see if any fans had managed to sneak around to the back. “We were making out last night and it just didn’t seem like the right time. I mean, we talked about it, and we’re both ready, but when we were alone and kissing it just… like it wasn’t the right time. I love him and everything, and he loves me, and we’re ready… I just don’t understand why we can’t do it.”
“Wait a minute, you guys talked about it?” Christy asked in disbelief. “Sex doesn’t happen by talking about it, it happens by just doing it. It’s about the moment and the feelings, you know? When it happens it happens.”
Becky nodded. “Okay. That’s actually really good advice.”

“See?” Christy lifted her shoulders. “Sometimes I can be brilliant.”

Becky laughed and opened the door to the backstage area. “Yeah, when it comes to sex.”

Zac walked off the stage after a quick practice, whistling. He continued the upbeat melody down the hall and into the VIP lounge where Isaac and Taylor were sitting.

Isaac looked up from his laptop with raised eyebrows. “Wow, someone is in a great mood today, considering you slept in a bunk last night.”

Zac shrugged. “Yeah, I guess so.”

“Well at least you seem well rested. Because the rest of us aren’t.” Taylor grumbled.

Zac laughed. “Did I snore?”

“Yes.” Both Taylor and Isaac replied.

“Well, I slept excellently.” Zac shrugged.

“Of course you did.” Taylor rolled his eyes.

“Wow, you’ve been bitchy ever since we got on the bus in Nevada.”

“Yeah, well that may just be the lack of sleep.”

“Really? I would have guessed PMS.” Zac retorted, without skipping a beat.

“Guys!” Isaac interrupted. “Look, we’re all tired. We’re all cranky. Can we get on with it?”

Taylor nodded slowly and Zac extended a hand, which Taylor slapped in an unspoken truce.

“Great, now that we’re on good terms, Zac, do you mind telling us what you’re so cheery about?” Isaac asked.

“Yeah,” Taylor chided, “Did you get Laid or something?”

Zac shrugged. “Maybe.”

Taylor and Isaac exchanged glances. “I guess that’s a no…”

“It’s an almost.” Zac corrected. “Let’s just leave it there.”

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Jenna sighed and snapped closed her laptop. She had been checking her email and messing around on the internet, but with no one online to talk to and the only new emails in her inbox being from Luke, she decided that even her computer was trying to belittle her.

She didn’t even open the letters from Luke. She knew that hearing from him would only complicate things further.

She still hadn’t spoken to Taylor yet. She deduced that Taylor was attempting to avoid her since they had been in such close quarters and she had barely seen him in an entire day.

Jenna sighed in exasperation. She got up from the small kitchen table and opened the blinds a crack.

She peered outside to see the fans already lining up, surrounding the other side of the bus, hoping for a glimpse of the band.

The door opened with a loud clanking noise and the bus rocked slightly as Christy and Becky returned to the bus.
“Hey Jen. Is your headache gone?” Becky asked.

“Yes.” Jen replied, even though she knew her headache was only just beginning.

“The guys suggested we stay in the bus and hang out until after the show starts. The bodyguard is running late, so it’s just us.” Christy explained. “Ike thinks it will be best if we wait until the crowd goes inside before we join them.”

Jen nodded. “There are definitely a lot of girls out there.”

“I know, the line goes all the way around the building.” Becky agreed.

Jen, Becky and Christy had moved from the bus to the venue shortly after the boys took the stage, and the last of the fans had made their way inside for the show.
”Wow, they’re really great tonight.” Becky observed. “I mean, they’re great most nights, but they’re definitely doing well tonight.” Becky observed. She was sitting with Christy and Jen in what was normally the VIP section of the club; a large u-shaped booth located near the bar.

Christy leaned back in her seat, and peered over the crowd to see the band.
A smile crossed her lips. “Isaac looks fantastic tonight, doesn’t he? I love those dress pants on him.”
Becky laughed. “Good god. You’ve got a one tracked mind haven’t you?”

“I could have told you that ages ago.” Jenna said, not taking her eyes off the stage.

“Yeah, thanks guys.” Christy rolled her eyes and took a sip from her ice tea. “But I think I’m perfectly allowed to ogle my future husband.”

“God, that’s going to be weird isn’t it? One man for the rest of your life?” Jen asked. “I thought you’d drop dead before then.”
“So did I.” Christy laughed. “But I’m more than happy to spend the rest of my life with Isaac.”
“Have you thought about kids yet?” Becky inquired, playing with the cap of her water bottle.

“No. Do you think we should?”

“Well, yeah. If you don’t want kids and he does, than you’re in s bit of a dilemma.” Becky pointed out.

“I never wanted children before, but now that I’ve met him, I want whatever he wants.”

Jen rolled her eyes. “How nineteen-fifties house wife of you.”

“Look, things change when you fall in love, okay? I changed, and if I have children that are as perfect for me as my husband-to-be, than I want that too. I want to be a housewife, raising children and taking care of them. You might experience that one day too, if you ever get the giant stick out of your ass.”

“Ugh!” Jenna replied and pushed herself out of the booth and disappeared from view.
Isaac was standing by himself backstage after the show. He had used the shower in the backstage area as he knew that Zac was probably in the one on the bus.
He decided to take a few moments to make sure all of the instruments were properly put away in the right crates and cases.

He laid his favorite guitar in it’s case and buckled the fasteners. He locked it and removed the travel tag, and replace it with a new one to be sure it wasn’t lost or misplaced anywhere.

He sat down on a crate which contained part of Zac’s drum set.

“Hey, there you are.”

Isaac looked up to see Taylor entering the room.

“You we’re looking for me?” Isaac asked.

“Well, not really. The girls all went to bed, and I thought I’d stretch my legs a bit before we take off again for the hotel. Christy said she was going to bed early, so I thought I’d spend some quality time with my instruments.”


Taylor flopped down on a chair and propped his feet up on an empty crate. “You know we have roadies for that right?”

Isaac shrugged. “If I do this do I get two pay checks?”

Taylor chuckled. “Right.”

“So what’s on your mind?” Isaac asked, after a moment of silence.

“What makes you think there’s something on my mind?” Taylor questioned.

Isaac shrugged. “I just made an assumption because you’re here and not sleeping or doing anything else.”

Taylor sighed. He hated that his brother knew him so well. “I kissed Jenna.”

Isaac raised his eyebrows in alarm. “You did? What happened?”

Taylor dropped his face into his palm. “I… I don’t know. We went to see Kevin’s band, you know? And we were dancing, and I just… kissed her, I guess.”

“And she let you?”

“She kissed back.”

“She did? What about Luke and their relationship? Is there even a relationship anymore?”

“I don’t know. I’ve kind of been avoiding her… I’m afraid she might not want to make anything more than a kiss out of this.”

“Okay…” Isaac drawled slowly, attempting to understand the situation.

Taylor sighed. “I’ve just… liked her for so long, I don’t want to screw up this chance, you know?”

“But how do you even know you have a chance?”

Taylor paused, thinking over his brother’s words very carefully. “I guess I don’t know.”